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Before Abraham Was, I AM

This event was, without a doubt, the greatest spiritual experience of my life, to date. However, it is somewhat difficult to explain and first requires a minimal amount of background information. In particular, I must show that 'time is an illusion,' before it will make much sense.

A Spiritual Interpretation of Einstein's General Theory of Relativity

Years after studying physics, I became fascinated with Einstein's discovery that measurements of spacial length and time duration are not constant, but rather that two different observers moving at constant velocity with respect to each other, will each correctly measure different length values for the same object, and different time intervals between the same two events. Furthermore, these variations are required specifically because it is the speed of light that is found to be constant for all observers, and speed is defined as distance divided by time. For several years I wondered why it was the speed of this wave phenomenom "light" that was the one physical invariant that science had discovered. I eventually realized that we speak of a space-time world and yet space and time are not even found to be unchanging with respect to this humanly perceived universe. So it can be said that they are not entirely, but only relatively real here. I began to ask what the relationship of time would be to a hypothetically 'more real' world than this one, from which this world might be derived. After much pondering, I decided that time would have to be comnpletely unreal in such a world, because it is a relative reality here, and so it would be a relative to, a relative reality, which has no meaning. Therefore, in a 'more real' or spiritual world, from which this world is somehow derived, time could not be real.

Before Abraham Was, I AM

One morning in 2008, I sat reading the New Testament Gospel of St. John. This was not long after I recognized that Einstein's famous theory of relativity can be spiritually interpreted as indicating that time is ultimately an illusion. I began to peek at the pages ahead, and suddenly realized that all of chapter 17 was the prayer that Jesus prayed before crossing a small bridge to enter the garden of Gethsemane. In particular, I saw that Jesus was asking to be glorified with the glory that he had with his Father before time began!

I then immediately saw that, if time is ultimately unreal, then history itself is also. However, if time and history are illusions, then the two thousand years between Christ Jesus and each of us, is also nonexistent from this viewpoint. This means that, without in any way devaluing Christ Jesus or what he accomplished in time, each and every one of us must ultimately be equivalent to the Christ! Now, before accusing me of blasphemy, take special note: I didn't say that we are equivalent to the Christ under the conditions of our existence in time. Rather, we are essentially, or in our essence, created equivalent to the Christ in the reality that we truly are, outside space and time. Within time, or (following the language of the Protestant theologian Paul Tillich) within "the estrangment under the conditions of existence," each human is born with the potential to completely actualize the Christ consciousness in their being. John 1:12 states "To as many as believed on his name, gave he the power to become sons of God (KJV) and in Ephesians 4:13, St. Paul speaks of achieving "the stature of the fullness of Christ."

Therefore, with much excitement, I realized that any one of us could, under these 'outside time' conditions, truthfully apply to ourselves, any statements that Christ Jesus made of himself! And so, with faith I decided to pray, from myself to God the Father, using these words of Christ, from the 17th chapter of the Gospel According to John (verses 5):

Less than half way through the chapter, I exploded with a joyous grief greater than any I had ever known. I spontaneously screamed, cried and wailed for several minutes, as I was struck with wave after wave of absolute certainty, that I was present with God before time began; before the foundation of the world, before the Big Bang, before any material thing was made. I now knew absolutely that I-have-always-co-existed-with-God. I had finally experienced the goal of the Sufi mystics: I had seen 'the face before I was born.' I now also understood the immortal words of the 'Christ within Jesus,' as equally applying to the 'Christ within' my own timeless Self: "Before Abraham was, I AM."